Showing posts with label Life in general. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life in general. Show all posts

Friday, July 2, 2010

Why? Why me?

Well we were at a Feldenkrais lesson today (that is going to be the theme of my next post I am still working on it) and I was talking to Elinor who is the practitioner. Elinor and I have been taping Annabelle's lessons and Elinor has been putting them up on You Tube for other practitioners to see and learn from, (if you want to see search "Elinor Silverstein") especially how to work with children, Elinor was saying how many emails she has received from practitioners all over north America and beyond, saying how much they are learning from the videos.
Then I said that was the purpose of doing all this work taping Annabelle was to inspire practitioners so that more have the confidence to work with special children and more children would be helped, and also if parents with special kids saw these, they might seek out a practitioner to help their child.
Then I said, and had an aaahhhhh moment - this is the reason why there are special needs children in this world because they inspire people not to be ordinary but extraordinary, to go beyond their capabilities. Learn new techniques, invent new techniques (feldenkrais, ABR, feeding therapies etc all are relatively new to this world ) to help that child develop. What kind of life this would be if everybody was the same, everybody was able bodied, intelligent, average!! Boring?
Elinor then said -well they won't know it!
Yes they won't know it for sure because until you are faced with the differences, faced with the challenges, faced with overcoming adversities, you just don't know it!
Like when before you had children you knew what it was like to stay up all night( par-tying or studying)it was all about you! But until you faced the challenge of of staying up all night looking after a sick child you just didn't know you could do that, that you had that capability in you.
I still remember when Annabelle was a small baby and she used to wake up frequently at night and not go back to sleep for sometimes 2 hours and I would nurse her and rock her until she eventually go back to sleep - and I would cry and cry and sob and think oh God why me? Why have you given me this child. Well I now know, to challenge me, to become a better person, and inspire, and challenge other people in this world too.
What challenges you? I would love to hear?




My son Matthew and Annabelle 8 months old - I always love rainbows because it always makes me think that no matter how bad the storm you can usually find a rainbow somewhere

Saturday, January 23, 2010

The lessons we come to learn

I believe that people come into our lives to help us learn the lessons we were meant to learn in this life, and especially our children. At first I thought Annabelle was given to me to learn patience, I always thought I was a patient person but oh boy Annabelle has stretched me to my limits and beyond some days.

But now I think that wasn't the real lesson I need to learn, I now think it is my ability to ask for help was the real lesson. I have always been a very independent person never wanting help from anybody to do anything and always thought my way was the best way to do it. Take for instance packing the dishwasher if my husband does not pack the dishwasher exactly the way I would do it, it would be wrong, and I would have to re-organize all the dishes my way. To the point were I would have to do everything because it wasn't being done my way. Well now that Annabelle needs so much of my time some days I don't even have time to pack the dishwasher let alone repack it if it was not done in the right way. Now I let my husband pack the dishes the way he wants to, its not wrong, its just different. I do need help to get through this I can't help Annabelle if I don't get help myself.
I came to this realization when 2 of my neighbors came by my house offering to help me, either to look after my son, help me clean my house, look after Annabelle while I take a shower. Before Annabelle's Angels they did not know about Annabelle and I would not have dreamed about asking for help. But without family nearby we have to rely on friends, neighbors to be there for us when things are tough. I just need to learn how to ask.


Annabelle doing really well sitting on the couch if you put her in the groove she will stay there for about 10-15 minutes before toppling over and of course if the right show is on the TV.